Do you have any phobias? Not just a fear of certain things, but true phobias? I think the biggest difference between the two is when you fear something you can just say, "OMG, that scares the shit out of me." With a phobia, you don't like to talk about it and it produces a true physical reaction. I have a couple fears and only one phobia. Emetophobia. I'll save you the trouble from googling it. It's the fear of throw up. It's a reallllly convenient phobia to have when you have three young children, let me tell you. Not a day goes by that I don't think about it. Especially on those nights when Chris is at the firehouse. I have a plan of action just in case I hear that horrid sound. I won't go into the details of my plan but they do include contacting my neighbor who has assured me she's at the ready at any hour.
I know that most people have an aversion to throw up. This is so much more. In a matter of half a second I break out in a sweat, I get tunnel vision, I can't think straight. This involves the sight of it, the smell of it, the sound of it. When I say I can't deal with it I absolutely mean it.
I'll cut out the gory details of last night and just tell you that I survived dealing with a child with the stomach flu! He threw up 3x an hour for nearly 5 hours and I survived! I dealt with it! I tended to him! I did 2 loads of laundry and bleached my entire downstairs at 2am! And again at 3am! But I DID IT! Alone!
Oh, and William is doing ok, too.