Thoughts

I was listening to NPR on the way to a doctor's appointment this morning.  The topic was the unemployment rate in the state of California (11%!) and ways in which that can be changed and prevented from happening again, as well as the consequences of such a high unemployment rate on every citizen in the state.  The apathy of the people who think they aren't affected is a huge factor in changes being so slow in coming.  After about 5 minutes of listening to it I changed it to a different station and found myself rocking out to Neyo and Pitbull.  And, my friends, there inlies the problem.   

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I take a class at the gym 4 nights a week.  3 are cardio/lifting classes, one is Zumba.  There is a girl in there who attends almost every single class I do.  She is super tall and fit and thin but mostly super tall.  She just looks... giantly tall.  Last night, for the first time, I stood next to her as we were putting our weights away.  We're the same height.  I think because she's thin she appears taller and I think because not a whole lotta women are nearly 6 feet it just struck me.  Do people think I am giantly tall?  I'm certainly helping myself to appear shorter with my girth but... do they? 

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I had an eye appointment this morning.  I've worn glasses since I was a sophomore in high school.  I just can't see far away.  I'm a squinter without my glasses.  With each pregnancy, though, my eye sight became better.  Then better, then better.  The optomotrist told me that if I had two more babies I'd probably be 20/20.  Well, since I'm 2.5 years out from my last pregnancy my eyes are getting worse again, and by worse I just mean to how they were before babies.  Weird.  But!  I get to go pick out new glasses.  I may change up my look a little.  Or maybe not.  I'm kinda chicken and not a fan of change.  We'll see.  I also told him that my eyes are really red and bothersome in the morning or even after a long nap.  He said it's caused by dryness and it's likely that for some reason all of a sudden I may be sleeping with my eyes open a little bit.  CREEP EEEE.

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William had a great birthday yesterday and I want to thank all of those who love him who reached out to him or even to me.  Last night when I put him to bed I told him all the mushy stuff I feel about him and how I'm so happy he had a great birthday.  He said, "Mommy, I promise I'll never unlove you."  I've never heard more awesome words.